Spoiler Alert: I discovered I don’t “read” body language – I see and hear it.
Oh, and more importantly, I was interviewed yesterday for a Texas media outlet.
The first question was “Walk us through your story.”
This was my response:
How funny such a simple question has changed so dramatically in one week. My story, as of today, is that every living person should have the freedom to decide when, where, and what they do with their bodies. The Supreme Courts’ decision is discriminatory and sets a very dangerous precedent. Overturning Roe v Wade is a step backwards, and will unnecessarily put women’s lives at risk.
I’m so angry over this decision that my “inner Celt” has been activated, (a mode I did not know existed). Never cross an Irish woman scorned.
I will proudly be protesting for the freedom to decide for myself in the near future.
Now, going back to the past … WAY back to April, when women still had the right to choose.
I had one of the coolest moments of my career during also one of the most challenging.
I was en route to Terilingua Texas for the celebration of life of my mentor Gil Prather.
Gil and I met on the CNBC show the West Texas Investors Club. You can read more of that here.
I had never been to Terilinguia before, but had researched our route from El Paso.
Many travelers reminded to stop off at specific markets, and make sure your gas tank was full as there are hours of stretch in between cities. It was stressful, but since I was already stressed with grief, I was ready to just go with whatever was happening.
Somewhere along the way, I got a message that a migration I was working on had not gone through. I immediately pulled over to restaurant (I think it’s technically labeled as a restaurant) with a hand painted WIFI sign.
Still in my skeleton onesie, I found the one little blip of shade to protect my ivory soft and smooth Irish skin outside a tee pee. (There’s also a tee pee in this scenario.)
That little blip of shade also happened to be DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF JACK DORSEY.
I’m normally not a “take a spy photo” person but considering this was one of the coolest moments of my life, I needed it documented.
Jack was then joined by Rick Rubin (who I did not know at the time but have been properly schooled on).
Rick Rubin is considered one of (if not the most) celebrated producers of all time.
Look at his credits:
- 1981: The Pricks – The Pricks
- 1983: Hose – Hose
- 1984: T La Rock & Jazzy Jay – “It’s Yours”
- 1984: LL Cool J – “I Need a Beat“
- 1985: Beastie Boys – “Rock Hard“
- 1985: Run-DMC – King of Rock (mixing)
- 1985: Jazzy Jay – “Def Jam/Cold Chillin’ In The Spot”
- 1985: Jimmy Spicer – “This Is It / Beat The Clock”
- 1985: Hollis Crew – “It’s The Beat”
- 1985: LL Cool J – Radio
- 1986: Run-DMC – Raising Hell
- 1986: Slayer – Reign in Blood
- 1986: Beastie Boys – Licensed to Ill
- 1986: Original Concept – Can You Feel It?
- 1986: Junkyard Band – “The Word” / “Sardines”
- 1987: Public Enemy – Yo! Bum Rush the Show (exec.)
- 1987: The Cult – Electric
- 1987: Run-DMC – “Christmas in Hollis“
- 1987: Various – Less Than Zero (soundtrack)
- 1987: LL Cool J – “Jack The Ripper”
- 1988: Public Enemy – It Takes a Nation of Millions to Hold Us Back (exec.)
- 1988: Slayer – South of Heaven
- 1988: Danzig – Danzig
- 1988: Run-DMC – Tougher Than Leather
- 1988: Original Concept – Straight from the Basement of Kooley High! (exec.)
- 1989: Masters of Reality – Masters of Reality
- 1989: LL Cool J – Walking With a Panther
- 1989: Wolfsbane – Live Fast, Die Fast
- 1989: Andrew Dice Clay – Dice
- 1990: The Black Crowes – Shake Your Money Maker (exec.)
- 1990: Andrew Dice Clay – The Day the Laughter Died
- 1990: Danzig – Danzig II: Lucifuge
- 1990: Slayer – Seasons in the Abyss
- 1990: Geto Boys – The Geto Boys (supervisor)
- 1990: Trouble – Trouble
- 1990: Wolfsbane – All Hell’s Breaking Loose Down at Little Kathy Wilson’s Place
- 1991: Red Hot Chili Peppers – Blood Sugar Sex Magik
- 1991: Slayer – Decade of Aggression
- 1991: Andrew Dice Clay – Dice Rules
- 1991: The Four Horsemen – Nobody Said It Was Easy
- 1991: Dan Baird – Love Songs for the Hearing Impaired
- 1992: Sir Mix-a-Lot – Mack Daddy (exec.)
- 1992: Trouble – Manic Frustration
- 1992: Danzig – Danzig III: How the Gods Kill (exec.)
- 1992: The Red Devils – King King
- 1992: Andrew Dice Clay – 40 Too Long
- 1992: Red Hot Chili Peppers – What Hits!?
- 1993: Flipper – American Grafishy (exec.)
- 1993: Mick Jagger – Wandering Spirit
- 1993: Raging Slab – Dynamite Monster Boogie Concert (exec.)
- 1993: The Cult – The Witch (CD, Single)
- 1993: Danzig – Thrall: Demonsweatlive
- 1993: Joan Jett and the Blackhearts – Flashback
- 1993: Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers – Greatest Hits
- 1993: Messiah – 21st Century Jesus (exec.)
- 1993: Andrew Dice Clay – The Day the Laughter Died, Part II
- 1993: Digital Orgasm – Do It (exec.)
- 1993: Barkmarket – Gimmick (exec.)
- 1993: Various – Last Action Hero: Music From The Original Motion Picture
- 1994: Johnny Cash – American Recordings
- 1994: Sir Mix-a-Lot – Chief Boot Knocka (exec.)
- 1994: Slayer – Divine Intervention (exec.)
- 1994: Danzig – Danzig 4
- 1994: Tom Petty – Wildflowers
- 1994: Andrew Dice Clay – Dice Live at Madison Square Garden
- 1994: Deconstruction – Deconstruction (exec.)
- 1994: Milk – Never Dated (exec.)
- 1994: Lords of Acid – Voodoo-U (exec.)
- 1994: Red Hot Chili Peppers – Live Rare Remix Box
- 1994: Red Hot Chili Peppers – The Plasma Shaft
- 1995: God Lives Underwater – God Lives Underwater (exec.)
- 1995: Nine Inch Nails – Further Down the Spiral
- 1995: Red Hot Chili Peppers – One Hot Minute
- 1995: AC/DC – Ballbreaker
- 1995: God Lives Underwater – Empty (exec.)
- 1995: Jazz Lee Alston – Jazz Lee Alston (exec.)
- 1996: Slayer – Undisputed Attitude (exec.)
- 1996: Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers – She’s the One
- 1996: Sir Mix-a-Lot – Return of the Bumpasaurus (exec.)
- 1996: Donovan – Sutras
- 1996: LL Cool J – All World: Greatest Hits
- 1996: Johnny Cash – Unchained
- 1996: Barkmarket – L. Ron (exec.)
- 1996: Raging Slab – Sing Monkey Sing (exec.)
- 1996: Kwest tha Madd Ladd – This Is My First Album (exec.)
- 1997: System of a Down – Demo Tape 3
- 1997: Various – Private Parts: The Album
- 1998: Slayer – Diabolus in Musica
- 1998: Johnny Cash & Willie Nelson – VH1 Storytellers
- 1998: System of a Down – System of a Down
- 1998: Lucinda Williams – Car Wheels on a Gravel Road (mixing)
- 1998: Various – Chef Aid: The South Park Album
- 1998: Sheryl Crow – The Globe Sessions
- 1999: Kula Shaker – Peasants, Pigs & Astronauts
- 1999: Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers – Echo
- 1999: Red Hot Chili Peppers – Californication
- 1999: Various – Loud Rocks
- 1999: Melanie C – Northern Star
- 1999: Mr. Hankey Poo – Mr. Hankey The Christmas Poo
- 1999: Various – Mr. Hankey’s Christmas Classics (exec.)
- 2000: Johnny Cash – American III: Solitary Man
- 2000: Rage Against the Machine – Renegades
- 2000: Eagle-Eye Cherry – Living in the Present Future
- 2000: Paloalto – Paloalto
- 2001: Saul Williams – Amethyst Rock Star
- 2001: American Head Charge – The War of Art
- 2001: System of a Down – Toxicity
- 2001: Slayer – God Hates Us All (exec.)
- 2001: Macy Gray – The Id (exec.)
- 2001: Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan – The Final Studio Recordings
- 2001: Krishna Das – Breath of the Heart
- 2002: Aerosmith – O, Yeah! Ultimate Aerosmith Hits
- 2002: Red Hot Chili Peppers – By the Way
- 2002: Johnny Cash – American IV: The Man Comes Around
- 2002: Audioslave – Audioslave
- 2002: System of a Down – Steal This Album!
- 2002: Rahat Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan – Rahat
- 2003: The Jayhawks – Rainy Day Music (exec.)
- 2003: The Mars Volta – De-Loused in the Comatorium
- 2003: Limp Bizkit – Results May Vary
- 2003: To My Surprise – To My Surprise (exec.)
- 2003: Joe Strummer & The Mescaleros – Streetcore
- 2003: Jay-Z – “99 Problems“
- 2003: Rage Against the Machine – Live at the Grand Olympic Auditorium
- 2003: Johnny Cash – Unearthed
- 2003: Paloalto – Heroes and Villains
- 2003: Krishna Das – Door of Faith
- 2003: Manmade God – Manmade God (exec.)
- 2004: Johnny Cash – My Mother’s Hymn Book
- 2004: Slipknot – Vol. 3: (The Subliminal Verses)
- 2004: The (International) Noise Conspiracy – Armed Love
- 2004: Lil Jon & the East Side Boyz – Crunk Juice
- 2004: T.H. White – More Than Before (keys)
- 2005: Weezer – Make Believe
- 2005: System of a Down – Mezmerize
- 2005: Audioslave – Out of Exile
- 2005: Shakira – Fijación Oral Vol. 1 (exec.)
- 2005: Limp Bizkit – Greatest Hitz
- 2005: Neil Diamond – 12 Songs
- 2005: Johnny Cash –The Legend of Johnny Cash
- 2005: System of a Down – Hypnotize
- 2005: Shakira – Oral Fixation Vol. 2 (exec.)
- 2006: Red Hot Chili Peppers – Stadium Arcadium
- 2006: Dixie Chicks – Taking the Long Way
- 2006: Johnny Cash – American V: A Hundred Highways
- 2006: Slayer – Christ Illusion (exec.)
- 2006: Justin Timberlake – FutureSex/LoveSounds
- 2006: God Dethroned – The Toxic Touch
- 2006: U2 – U218 Singles
- 2006: Johnny Cash The Legend of Johnny Cash Vol. II
- 2007: Linkin Park – Minutes to Midnight
- 2007: Poison – Poison’d!
- 2007: Luna Halo – Luna Halo (exec.)
- 2007: Gossip – Live in Liverpool (exec.)
- 2007: Dan Wilson – Free Life (exec.)
- 2007: Kanye West, Nas, KRS-One, Rakim – “Classic (Better Than I’ve Ever Been)“
- 2007: Vanessa Carlton – “Heroes & Thieves“
- 2007: Coheed and Cambria – “Good Apollo, I’m Burning Star IV, Volume Two: No World for Tomorrow“
- 2008: Ours – Dancing for the Death of an Imaginary Enemy
- 2008: Neil Diamond – Home Before Dark
- 2008: Weezer – Weezer (Red Album)
- 2008: Jakob Dylan – Seeing Things
- 2008: Metallica – Death Magnetic
- 2008: The (International) Noise Conspiracy – The Cross of My Calling
- 2009: Gossip – Music for Men
- 2009: Pete Yorn – Back & Fourth (exec.)
- 2009: The Avett Brothers – I and Love and You
- 2009: Brandi Carlile – Give Up the Ghost
- 2009: Slayer – World Painted Blood (exec.)
- 2009: Type O Negative – Bloody Kisses “Top Shelf” edition (2009 re-release) “Summer Breeze” (Rick Rubin Mix)
- 2010: Johnny Cash – American VI: Ain’t No Grave
- 2010: Gogol Bordello – Trans-Continental Hustle
- 2010: Linkin Park – A Thousand Suns
- 2010: Josh Groban – Illuminations
- 2010: Kid Rock – Born Free
- 2011: Adele – 21
- 2011: Red Hot Chili Peppers – I’m with You
- 2011: Metallica – Beyond Magnetic
- 2011: Linkin Park – A Thousand Suns+
- 2012: Linkin Park – Living Things
- 2012: Howlin’ Rain – The Russian Wilds (exec.)
- 2012: ZZ Top – La Futura
- 2012: The Avett Brothers – The Carpenter
- 2012: Lana Del Rey – Paradise
- 2012: Red Hot Chili Peppers – Rock & Roll Hall of Fame Covers EP
- 2013: Linkin Park – Living Things +
- 2013: Black Sabbath – 13
- 2013: Kanye West – Yeezus (exec.)
- 2013: Eminem – The Marshall Mathers LP 2 (exec.)
- 2013: Jake Bugg – Shangri La
- 2013: Linkin Park – Recharged
- 2013: Lady Gaga – Artpop
- 2013: The Avett Brothers – Magpie and the Dandelion
- 2013: Red Hot Chili Peppers – I’m Beside You
- 2014: Jennifer Nettles – That Girl
- 2014: Ed Sheeran – X
- 2014: Angus & Julia Stone – Angus & Julia Stone
- 2014: Damien Rice – My Favourite Faded Fantasy
- 2014: Linkin Park & Alec Puro – Mall
- 2014: Wu-Tang Clan – A Better Tomorrow
- 2014: Yusuf – Tell ‘Em I’m Gone
- 2015: GoldLink – And After That, We Didn’t Talk
- 2016: Kanye West – The Life of Pablo
- 2016: Various – Star Wars Headspace
- 2016: James Blake – The Colour in Anything
- 2016: The Avett Brothers – True Sadness
- 2017: Billy Corgan – Ogilala
- 2017: Jovanotti – Oh, vita!
- 2017: Eminem – Revival
- 2018: Ruen Brothers – ‘All My Shades Of Blue’
- 2018: The Smashing Pumpkins – Shiny and Oh So Bright, Vol. 1 / LP: No Past. No Future. No Sun.
- 2019: Santana – Africa Speaks
- 2019: Jovanotti – Jova Beach Party
- 2019: Jovanotti – Lorenzo sulla Luna
- 2019: Kae Tempest – The Book of Traps and Lessons
- 2019: The Avett Brothers – Closer Than Together
RICK RUBIN PRODUCED BABY GOT BACK!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!!
THAT IS MY KARAOKE PEANUT BUTTER, JELLY AND JAM!!
Also note the range of artists he has worked with.
To go from Johnny Cash, to ZZ Top, to Jay Z, to Ed Sheeran … all completely different genres. That’s really impressive.
Two of arguably the most influential people in their worlds are casually having lunch together in this RANDOM (I think it’s labeled as a) RESTAURANT with a hand painted WIFI sign that we TOO (Jeff and I) happen to be at.
It wasn’t like I was observing them from a stage or at an event – Rick brought his wife and kids.
I was aware this was a very, very intimate moment and a TREMENDOUS opportunity to put my newly discovered body language talents to the test.
I went into almost like a trans studying them both. It was the most “tuned in” I have ever been. If a pore enlarged in that exact moment I could have heard it.
I had to be careful not to let on what I was doing.
Jack knew that I knew who he was the second I sat down.
I think the skeleton onesie screamed “hey, I’m your target demographic and a huge fan.”
I knew it wasn’t my face, because it barely moved and my eyes were pin sized behind my massive Tom Ford glasses. The only other thing that would give me away is the onesie.
I was careful not to read their lips as an invasion of their privacy.
I trained myself to lip read at age four when my parents started to mouth plans to each other. With my honest yet to be diagnosed autism showing, I would then tell them what I lip read. They were impressed but also started to cover their mouths.
As I continued to stare, I noticed that there was a tone attached to both of them.
With Jack, I heard a buzz like a radar beeping.
Similar to this, but faster with the beats in between:
Rick Rubin sounded like this:
Remember at the time, I FOOLISHLY had NO IDEA who Rick Rubin was at the time, nor how much meditating he does, I just knew I heard the sound of OM.
It was really specific and in stark contrast to Jack’s radar buzz.
After the dust settled, I said to Jeff, so I know I see shapes around people, and now I know when I REALLY tune in I can hear tones.
How do I know that what I’m experiencing is “reading body language?” I can’t guarantee that it is. I’ve never heard a body language expert describe what they are seeing in terms of shapes and tones.
A few months back, I was diagnosed with a condition called Synesthesia.
Very simply put, my input sense is not my output sense. When I smell certain things, I can actually taste them. I have little to no sense of smell, btw.
I hear sounds, and see shapes around people. All five of my senses are merged and process information differently than the average person.
<tangent> I had no idea how to describe what I see, hear, feel, taste, and smell, so I worked with a very talented artist Alex Boya to visually and audibly show what it is like:
I see life in layers, and that’s how I can break complex ideas and thoughts down so simply and specifically. </tangent>
“Jack and Rick had such different tones, it’s surprising they are friends, but considering the vast array of artists Rick has worked with, I’m sure he’s used to not matching tones,” I said to Jeff over breakfast one morning.
“I don’t know how to proceed with writing what I experienced. I didn’t know people have tones, and I feel like not mentioning it is dishonest. I saw what I saw, and I know what I know. People have shapes around them like a cookie cutter, and now I know they have tones attached to them too.
How the FUCK do I describe that?!”
“Exactly like you just did,” said Jeff.
I then reached back out to Joe Navarro, my new homie, and the man who has the number one body language book in the world.
For reference, here’s what I wrote the first time:
Here’s Joe’s response …
HE SENT THIS FROM HIS iPHONE!!!!
Here’s what I sent next …
He told me to stop seeking a guru, and for the first time in our newly minted friendship, he didn’t respond.
In the same beat and breath, I then reached out to my 8th grade art teacher, Joyce St. Germaine.
She’s been a long time family friend and spiritual teacher/ healer.
“I was in the same harmonious state as Jack Dorsey and Rick Rubin” might be most magical sentence I have ever heard.
<tangent> Sorry, “Jen, I’d like to introduce you to Buzz” … you have been replaced. </tangent>
That’s how I identified my first conman (technically con woman) using synesthesia.
I SAW A COIN! Like one from the TV show Ducktales.
I love that that’s how my conscious mind added a coin from a cartoon I haven’t seen in 30 plus years.
It took me a few weeks to fully process, and confirm yet again, that yes, I do see shapes and can tune into people’s “vibes” aka tone.
Now that I’m aware of it, the shapes and tones are getting louder and more obvious.
“Whatever is next, I know I’m ready, I said to Jeff. I was born with this gift and now that I know I have it, there’s no turning back,” I said on Friday sitting on our couch.
“I’m glad to hear you say that,” he said.
I don’t know what made me do this, but I then checked out Jeff’s Instagram and was shocked at what I saw.
THIS IS IT!!!! THIS IS THE SHAPES!!! I shouted from the living room.
“What do you mean?” he asked.
YOU CAPTURED IT!! YOU CAPTURED WHAT I SEE AROUND PEOPLE.
“Have you never looked at my Instagram feed?”
“NOT THE WHOLE THING,” I admitted. 50% of our relationship has been in quarantine. Wait, THIS YOU TAKE OFFENSE OVER!??!”
“LOOK!! YOU DID IT!! THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I SEE!!”
This is how I see people normally …
this is how i see gang stalkers …
“When I say the shapes are unique to the person it’s because they are! Look at how the tree has the thin black outline.”
I zoomed in closer …
I literally saw a square walk into a bar and went ummmm, that’s new. It’s not every day you see a square walk into a bar.
And then once we were on the cruise and I grabbed the other square’s phone, I had confirmation that I was being stalked.
THIS IS HUGE! I accurately connected the dots to “supposed” random people.
What’s the saying, if the shape fits …
You can’t hide from your energy field!!
A few hours later I messaged our mutual friend who is a laser scientist and ye who holds the patents for laser based GPS (which is how the Mars Rover landed).
I said to Jeff, “I have a choice. I can live life like Rick in an OM state, or I can live life like Jack with a buzzy radar tone (constantly scanning the room).
“Rick Rubin’s tone is like he grabbed the Earth, gave it a noogie, pulled Earth back, and went ‘we good?'”
My new mantra is “Be Like Rick.”
And for those who are interested in following a similar path, watch this interview.