#NerdsUnite: My first adult heartbreak

I’m fascinated by this notion of transparency. Every time I sit there and think I am being 110% transparent, I realize there is another story to tell … and yet another story to tell … the path to “owning it” is a mighty long one, nerderinos.

That being said, I just got off the phone with my mom and I was telling her how I am going to see a Shaman tomorrow. She got super excited and said she wondered if there was something legit off with me emotionally that I am completely incapable of forming intimate relationships. She said, the last one you had was with (names have been changed) Noah. Are you sure you’re still not dealing with things over him?

I laughed thinking, oh HELL NO, I have zero problems with the duderino. Then I was reminded of this video I made and haven’t shown a single living person … and I started to wonder, have I really not let this go? I’m not sure, how does someone ever REALLY know when they’ve let something go.

Ladies and germie men, I present to you the most personal video I have ever made and very very very literally had ZERO intention of ever showing. I very very very honestly only even made the damn thing to hear my own voice and attempt to process this. This is no BS. This was what I actually went through.

Whabadaba ding dong … I am going to the corner to cringe now.

#youcantseemecauseimhiding