<editorsnote> Nerds, meet my buddy Misti Dawn. She’s formerly the nerdiest girl in porn who is now trailing her own path and making a name for herself on her own. She’s recently discovered that her husband is a pathological liar … literally … and is now trying to piece her life back together one post at a time. I only have one more thing left to say … HIT IT MISTI!!! </editorsnote>
Well, its been a rollercoaster of a two weeks now but I feel like I am in a much better place. Knowing the relationship was never really what i thought it was makes it much easier to move on with my heart. I wish him well for sure but he has gone to a place and doesnt want help. What can you do?
Work has really been going well. Jen, the girls, and I have the Live show Friday. I got the part of Nina for Sanity not Included, and some editing work. The podcast is coming. Everything seems to be coming together at the perfect time thanks for my amazing friends I have made out here. Really changing directions in life has been amazing. Scary, hard, but exciting. Although it is fun to use the term fisting and see people get shocked, got used to nothing being shocking for a while.
Saturday we all went to Dr. Suzys radio show. Dr Suzy has been nice enough to help me through all of this. She has been amazing and supportive. I really felt like for the first time I found therapy that felt right. Oddly enough, it was Eros and Venus day which last year Michael and I play. Insane what can change in a year. Hal Sparks actually came in, we’d been talking for a bit on line and ran in to each other here and there but this was the first time we really got to hang out and talk. Impressed. I had no idea he was from Kentucky either. Was nice to have a good conversation with someone and i instantly felt very comfortable around him. Maybe its my new state of no one is a romantic interest to me right now so I just dont care about, well that kind of walls.
So, I’m done moving and have to get up early to pick up MC Lars up from the airport and work. Hello new world. Nice to meet you.